It was a very normal evening when my husband, John, first brought up the idea of a threesome. We had been married for a few years and had always shared a passionate and adventurous love life. Our intimate moments were filled with laughter, excitement, and boundless affection. We explored each other's desires, making our connection stronger with every passing day. But that particular night, John's suggestion threw a curveball into our relationship that I never saw coming.

At first, I was completely against the idea. The thought of sharing my husband, even in the most intimate way, was unimaginable to me. I loved John, and I didn't want anyone else in our sexual  world. But he was persistent, explaining how it could bring new excitement and pleasures into our relationship. He promised me it would only strengthen the bond between us.

After weeks of contemplation, I finally agreed. We decided to try our luck in this new territory, and when we first started, it was completely exciting and mind blowing. We met different individuals, told them about our fantasies and a lot of them were down. We chose specifically women though; John was not comfortable with the idea of sharing me with another man. 

These threesomes we had added a spark to our life that we hadn't felt in years and in return we always compensated the individuals we engaged in threesomes very well. I had to admit; John was right. Our connection was stronger than ever, and our passion for each other seemed insatiable.

Over the next few years, we made sure that anybody we chose was  a mutual decision, a choice made by both of us and that nobody felt slighted. While in the bedroom, we both gave each other equal opportunities to explore and he never made me left out during the sexual activities. Our relationship became  

 even more exciting and adventurous. It seemed that our love could withstand anything, and we felt invincible as a couple.

Then, we met Linda.

Linda was a beautiful and wild young woman who quickly became a part of our lives. Her presence was electrifying, and it wasn't long before she became a regular participant in our encounters. At first, it was thrilling. We had fun, smoked, and even shared previous experiences with her. But as time passed, I began to feel an unsettling shift.

I noticed that during our sexual moments, John and Linda seemed to spend a lot of time together with each other. They would exchange glances, share inside jokes, and spend more time with each other than with me. I felt like a bystander in my own love life, slowly being pushed aside. I could sense an emotional connection forming between them, something that had never occurred with our previous partners.

It was made even worse when I  discovered that John and Linda were talking behind my back. I would catch them in private conversations while peeping at him phone, sharing secrets that excluded me. I started feeling like an outsider, an intruder in my own marriage. The sense of being replaced by Linda took a toll on my self-esteem and happiness.

My sense of alienation reached its peak when I stumbled upon the receipt for a gift John had purchased for Linda. It was the same bag he had once given me, now in her possession. The realization was like a punch to the gut. I felt deceived and hurt, and I couldn't help but question where our love had gone wrong.

I knew I had to address the situation, to express my concerns and doubts. But how could I tell my husband that I felt pushed out of our life, our bedroom, and our relationship? How could I explain that the threesome experience, which had once strengthened our love, was now tearing us apart?

As I struggled to come to terms with my emotions, I began to consider the idea of introducing another man into our love life. Maybe it would help John understand how I felt, how it was to share the person you love with someone else. But the thought of even suggesting fills me with so much anxiety and fear. 

 Would it bring us closer, or would it push us even further apart?

These questions swirl in my mind, and I find myself questioning the choices we had made over the years. I felt trapped, regretful, and lost in a marriage that once held so much love and possibilities.  

It feels like he’s cheating; except somehow I gave my consent to it. Our love story had once been a 

The introduction of threesomes and Linda had turned it into an emotional rollercoaster. 

I’m at a crossroad because I don’t know how to navigate his new situation. I don’t want to push him further into Linda’s arms by making her too important when I talk about her. At the same time, I can’t keep bearing the pangs of jealousy I feel each time I see her and my husband on the bed. 

My husband thinks I’m still onboard with the whole situation. I don’t know how he would react if I told him I want out of the situation.  I hope I figure it out soon for the sake of my emotional and mental health. 

Miriam's experiences have left her at a crossroads, facing an uncertain future with her husband and grappling with the aftermath of a once-exciting decision. The strength of their love is put to the test as they navigateto the consequences of their choices.