I wish every single person that is about to get married could get a preview of what their married life would look years down the line.&nbsp;

I, for sure would have backed out if I had gotten one.&nbsp;

&nbsp;When I met my wife, I had been instantly attracted to her. It was almost like a Nicholas sparks movie. She was all I could think about through the day and I wanted to get married to her more than anything in the world. I mean, she was stunning, my dream girl in every possible way - tall, slender, dark skinned and absolutely beautiful. We had electric sparks flying everywhere; yes and even some butterflies in the mix.&nbsp;

Our chemistry was off the charts, so great that our friend and family even pointed out all the time. &nbsp; Our sex life was also pretty great, almost fire. I was so certain that their was no one better suited for me than her.

However, 8 months into my marriage, something changed, or maybe I just started seeing things differently.&nbsp;

Those little quirks that she had that I &nbsp;used to absolutely adore started to grate on my nerves. All the things I found cute about her suddenly became annoying. Worse, I realized that she wasn’t compatible with me mentally. I would have conversations with her and she could only meet up with me through funny banters. Turns out, she wasn't quite as smart as I thought she was. Or maybe I just hadn’t been paying attention.

Our conversations got boring, shallow, and frankly, I just couldn't connect with her on an intellectual level.

It was almost as if we were speaking different languages, and I was stuck in a room where everyone else was having a blast while I was just nodding and pretending to be part of the fun. I felt like I was growing apart from her with every passing day, and even worse. I just missed the excitement I used to feel before with her.&nbsp; I missed the feeling; not the person.&nbsp;

3 years into our marriage, and I found myself getting even more bored and exhausted. I started resenting our conversations and even her mere presence.&nbsp;

Any moment I spend together with her now&nbsp; feels like a never-ending chore.&nbsp;

I mean, it got to a point where I would be sitting across from her and all i can think is, "I'd rather be anywhere else."

My love for her had faded into a mundane routine, and I didn't know how to fix it. I didn’t even know if I wanted to fix it. My marriage was beginning to feel like a silent, lonely battleground.

And then came the kicker - she got pregnant.

For a while I thought that would fix my love for her and make me feel differently towards her, but how wrong I was.

&nbsp;Don't get me wrong; I was excited about becoming a dad, but i noticed that body started to change, and not in a way that I found attractive anymore.

&nbsp;She gave birth 6 months ago and her once-perky boobs are, well, no longer perky. Also her belly now features an extra pouch just below her belly button and it hangs out in any dress she wears.&nbsp;

I hate to admit it, but her body just didn't do it for me anymore. I feel almost repulsed by it and doubt I would ever want to have sex with her again.&nbsp;

My&nbsp; resentment for her had grown even stronger. It makes me feel bad because she hasn’t done anything to deserve it.&nbsp;

Then came that viral Twitter thread just some weeks ago and Man!&nbsp; it feels like someone had cracked open my mind and put my thoughts on display for the world to see.&nbsp;

All these guys were pouring out their hearts about when they realized they no longer loved their partners, and it mirrored exactly what I’m feeling on the inside.&nbsp;

They talked about feeling trapped, disconnected, and resentful, and I thought, "That's me, right there." It was as if they were reading my mind, and it was both comforting and terrifying to know I wasn't alone in this mess.

I feel&nbsp; like I am trapped in a&nbsp; loop of unhappiness, with no way out. I can’t just leave; it would break her heart, and I didn't want our child to go through what I did growing up without a dad. She also doesn’t deserve this and it hurts me more because I know she really loves me. I guess it would have better if she deserved it or had it coming.&nbsp;

I feel like I can’t breathe and it sucks so bad. My mind is driving me crazy.&nbsp;

Whatever it is I used to feel for my wife has faded completely and I’m so unhappy while still t rying to make sense of it all. It's like I'm on a rollercoaster with no end in sight, and all I can do is hold on and hope I find a way out of this mess.

It got to a point where I would be sitting across from my wife and all i can think is, "I'd rather be anywhere else."


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